I was busy packing up my house, selling practically everything I owned, saying goodbye to people and playing my very last tennis match. It was a time of excitement, happiness, sadness , anxiousness and a feeling of "Here we go again".
As you get older it becomes harder to make new friends and maybe it would have been easier to stay back and just get on with life the way it was. Maybe. But I never chose the easy way and I really wanted to be happy. Not just happy everything is fine happy. But truly happy. They way you're happy when your insides bubble with excitement.
It took a while (at least a couple of weeks and jetlag) and then the happiness settled in. It was a very selfish decision to uproot my children and make them move to a different country away from all of their friends, but when I see how they have both blossomed in the past year, becoming independent individuals who aren't afraid of trying something new, I am happy about our decision.
There have been plenty times over the past year where I have thought I was a terrible parent for putting them through this, and I am sure they think so too, but in the long run we are all much much happier than ever.
I still miss my friends, I will always miss my friends. But I have made new friends and I'm really happy.
Would i do it all again? While I have no intentions of ever leaving Edinburgh, I think I would do it again if the right opportunity came along. But I would probably wait until the kids are done with school. Maybe. I think. I don't know.
While I don't miss anything from life in Atlanta I appreciate the experience and I guess I'm just not housewife suburbia material. And that's okay. I thrive in the city. I love the noise, I love all the people and I just really feel at home here.
I have met some fantastic girls (they don't want to be ladies) and the support and friendship they have given me in the past year (well since I met them) is invaluable to me. I hope they know that. We have a lot of fun together and it's nice to be 100% comfortable around other people.
In April we made a trip back to the U.S. We spent 2 great weeks with friends and it was so nice to see everyone again, but it was also a really good feeling to have the longing to go home to Scotland. I was practically hyperventilating driving into the old neighborhood and I don't want that feeling ever again. I just wish my friends would pack up and move with me. Then all would be good.
I'm looking forward to seeing my "Sister I never had" in September, Edinburgh is going to be a dangerous place for a week. Must start training my liver pronto.
Happy first Edinburghversary to us:) And many more.
No comments:
Post a Comment